Together

Could we be together
Could you love only me
Should I open my heart
and let you in
would this be the right thing
for me
Can my heart and my head
become one or is it
meant to be apart
Can I have you and we can be one
together can be you and me
together can we love
Us together

By Shay 2009

Still In Love

I found myself in your heart
I lost myself in your eyes
I melted in your arms
Decided to give you all of me
Opened my heart and
gave you everything
Made the plans to be
with you forever
Now not sure if we will ever be together
Wondering if I should stay
or let go and not try
You told me I no longer
have your heart
And you know you will
always have mine
But still something deep inside
says see if the love can survive
Unsure of what the future holds
Some how keeping thoughts of
still being close
Laying in bed at night
still wanting to feel you
by my side
Waking up whispering
your name
My heart still hurting
from the pain
of possibly having to
let you go
Hating every moment of the day
Because I don’t know
Will I ever be in your heart again
or will this love end
I’m still in love with you
but that much
You already knew....

By Shay 2009

My Comforter

You were my comforter
The one I ran to when I was in need
Now that it’s ended like this
who will hold me?
The shoulder to cry on
as the tears fall
The arms to hold me
with the words to let me
know everything will be ok
Who can I run to?
When everything seems so wrong
When it all feels so bad
Not being able to go back
and the fear of going forward
not knowing what lays ahead
Without the one you hope
would always be there
and I wonder
what else is there
not sure if I should
give up or try again
search for love
or just let it end
be alone and find myself
be my comforter
hold me, love me
be there for me
dry my tears as they fall
because you hurt me
and there’s no love at all


By Shay 2009

The Last Night

Inviting me over, knowing that you have something to say. As I sit there staring into
your eyes, I feel like something is wrong. When you begin to speak, tears full my eyes.
I know what’s going to come next, as you drop your head into your hands. They start to slowly roll down my face. Feeling my body shiver all over, and my stomach doing flips.
You begin to tell me how you love me, but how much you love her more. How you never
meant to hurt me, but you’re not sure what to do. My head fills with so many times when
I knew all of this was coming. Yet I never listened to what I was feeling and I thought it was just my nerves. I look into your eyes, and I’m not sure if this really hurts you, as much as you say it does. Knowing that the whole time you were with me. That you still had
feelings for her. As I think about all the plans we made, and all the times you said you loved me. Was it really meant to be? Were we the ones that were truly meant to be together?
You made me feel things as well as I made you feel things. And in all that feeling what really happened to us? Looking into your eyes one last time as I say those, once never thought about words, and my eyes are so sore and swollen.. I can feel my heart breaking
into so many pieces. And I wonder if you really care, or is this just something you need
to do. You know how much I love you and how much I care about you. Open my mouth
one last time to say goodbye. This time the meaning is different, and to say I will never
see you again. I hold you close, and squeeze tight just to know how it feels. Closing my eyes trying to never forget what it all meant to me. Stepping away slowly knowing that we will never do that again.. Wanting to say those three words “I love you”. But I know I won’t
get it back if I do. Trying to turn and walk away, and I hear you say. “Baby I’m sorry and I do love you still”. And I think yeah right like you really mean it. I turn to you and nod my
head, as I step down off the steps. The last night I see you, and the last time I say I love you. Goodbye and good luck....


By Shay 2009